Monday, November 29, 2010


Still having the same recurring dream, I had that freaky dream again, nothing has changed I am sitting at the window in this white room wearing a white nightgown and holding a baby in a white blanket everything is white, I am looking out the window to a sunny day I am sitting in a rocking chair and everything appears to be white, I am crying silently, the only color is my gold wedding band and a brown frame holding a picture, I can't see the picture very well....

Thursday, October 21, 2010


Okay I had this funky dream, there was this guy and girl, and the guy was being abducted painfully by aliens, there was metal arms and spikes and they killed him in "this world" he was like reborn or his soul was placed in his body in another work- there were lots of aliens and robots- they aliens study him and are about to kill him when he escapes- he brings his gf over, but it is horrible a metal arm comes out of her mouth and rips her soul over to the other side another her.  She gets there and and the man has set up robots to follow him and fight the aliens to escape they are came for them and he turns on the robots and the fight stars, I wake up.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Would You Lay With Me Song By Tanya Tucker

Would you lay with me, in a field of stone?

If my needs were strong, would you lay with me?

Should my lips grow dry, would you wet them, dear.

In the midnight hour, if my lips were dry.

Would you go away to another land?

Walk a thousand miles through the burnin' sand?

Wipe the blood away from my dyin' hand,

If I give myself to you?

Will you bathe me, in the stream of life?

When the moon is full, will you bathe me?

Will you still love me, when I'm down and out?

In my time of trial, will you stand by me?

Would you go away to another land?

Walk a thousand miles through the burnin' sand?

Wipe the blood away from my dyin' hand,

If I give myself to you?

Would you lay with me, In a field of stone?

Should my lips grow dry, should you wet them, dear?

Will you bathe me, in the stream of life?

Would you still love me, when I'm down and out?

Would you lay with me, in a field of stone?

Should my lips grow dry, would you wet them, dear?


I can not sleep
I can not dream
I can not eat
I can not drink
I barely make a peep
I can't see you are a creep
I barely see the sun beam
I can't follow my dream
every time i hear your lies
my heart breaks and cries
your lies burn like lava from a volcano
and my tears they fall like rain in a tornado
I have been stuck in the past
But now I am putting up my mast
I am going to walk out this door
Because baby I deserve more
Baby don't you dare follow me
For once life is how it is suppose to be
Now I sleep
Now I dream
Now I eat
Now I drink
I make more then just a peep
You were just a creep
My smile is brighter then the sun's beam
Now I am living my dream

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Everything Going to Be Okay?

Can’t you see the pain inside of me?

I just need to know that everything

Is going to be okay

The pain inside is too great

I don’t know how I am going to go on

But please don’t leave

I lost you in this world

You were far too young

We were not ready to be without you

So can’t you see the pain inside of us?

I just need to know that everything

Is going to be okay

Saturday, October 2, 2010

They Say Men Are From Mars
And Women Are From Venus
That Is True We Are Like Two Different Stars
And All I Want To Do Is Go With You To Venice

Saturday, September 25, 2010


Never Never Leave
You are going to leave
I know you are
And when you do I will grieve
And my heart shall have a scar
Never Never Leave

Sunday, September 12, 2010


Okay there was this person tried to kill a child broke into the rich persons house, hired us, we decided to act like teenagers and go back to school. This was no normal school it was one of witchcraft. We got there to register, it was divided by rich and poor. We went to the poor, but realized when told we should have gone to the rich. We went and started to register on the computer, but classes started. We went to the media center, the person there was a psychic and a powerful witch. She had white eyes. We were looking around and in this one book when she attacked. We were able to get another couple of teachers to help restrain her, she went lax. We got a lead from a vision she had and went to follow it. The room was 92B. We were almost their when we realized it was the forbidden area, and called the head master. He was trying to kill us. When we restrained him a black puff of cloud came out of his mouth and entered another. We restrained him by himself. And sat to figure out what to do. We realized that the entity was trying to corrupt the innocent, the children, when it couldn't find an available child it went to a good adult. So we brought in a corrupt person and put him in front of the one who we trapped, and opened a small door. Glad to escape the entity entered the evil person. But the evil person was happy to have it in him. The entity could not escape because it was trapped, or threatened. The evil person left, controlling the entity. And me and the headmistress went to sit down. Early she had given be a box of books, they were written by relatives, she told me she was related to the writers as well, meaning we were related somehow. We sat down and talked movies and books, stating I like the books better then the movies, but still read the book before I see the movie. Then I woke up.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Dream Last Night

Okay strange dream here.... I came in the procession of the place I work at, won't say any names, but since I now owned it, i took all the managers into a little room and said you are a bunch of incompetent a$$holes and get out... so I fired them all then I woke up...

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Long time no write

Okay now as you know I am writing my story at, but lets talk about what is up with me, nothing much training for new skills at work, worrying about money the normal things and have weird dreams, about instant messages and quiting and firing and saying how many of something each Matt i think it was write ups and they get one a piece, and about blow jobs, joking  instant messages about blow jobs, with the main boss at this new job then the person coming to my house (MY OWN) and talking again about blow jobs but I tell him no until something then I wake up.... very very weird

Wednesday, September 1, 2010


So I had a dream last night/this morning, whatever. Anyways I was looking for theses spirts, the spirits of the elements, earth, air, fire and water and spirit of course, and when I found them I got these really cool tattoos, anyways i found earth, air, fire and water, and was looking for spirit and i was panicking because i had to find them or someone, me or someone else, was going to die, or something really bad was going to happen to world... anyways then my alarm went off...

Monday, August 30, 2010


Okay so I see all these people going crazy about vampires... come on there has been stories about them forever... I should now I have always been a bit obsessed with them... I researched a lot of the myths about them... so since people like Vampire stories, I am writing one, I will post a new chapter each week, these chapters are copyrighted by me NO STEALING!!!! The Prologue will be posted next week... stay tuned.

Not much going on

There hasn't been much going on, I got my wisdom tooth pulled last week (Tuesday) it still is bothering me, I am training for more work at work, without more pay, I went to see The Sourcer's Apprentice, I gave it a B it made me laugh, The Last Airbender we also went to see, my brother gave it a D- I gave it a big fat F! I think I may have written that before, I am not sure, but other then that just doing crazy little hobbies... later

Thursday, August 5, 2010


Well it has been awhile, nothing much has been going on went to see Eclipse I give it a D-, it was slow and more could have been down with it, hopefully the next one is better, I went to see Sorcerers Apprentice that was kinda funny I give it a solid B it was good, one of the better movies I have seen in a long time way to go Nickolas Cage!

Sunday, July 25, 2010


The Futrue is Uncertain

So is the present

and so is the the past

The questions

Who What When

Where Why and How

They are always asked

But almost never

in full answered

Life Is Uncertain

But if it wasn't

Boredom would be ours

for enternity

So bring on the Uncertainty

Saturday, July 17, 2010


You know I was just thinking about people in my life, or lack thereof depending on your point of view. People I went to school with, my friends, most people my age in general are married or divorced or engaged or at least have a baby... so the question is what is wrong with me, I will be 27 in 2 months and I still have no real urge to settle down, yes I wouldn't mind being in a relationship, but to fully settle down, to never travel like my plans were, that I am not ready for, I still want to do a huge trip across Europe- London, Paris, someplace in Spain, someplace in Germany, Rome, Florance, Sicily- hell then go further- Egypt, Moscow, The Great Wall of China, Toyko- then I stop and think... about do I really want to stay in Iowa... I would love to live in NYC or LA or even Chicago... I would love to go back to school, but I still don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life... then I stop and think about how short life is, how I have all these plans do everything I want then settle down... but what if I don't have the time to do so... life is so short... how you choose what is most important... what do you have to do in this life to fill satisfied... what if you can't choose... what if you want everything... I don't know anymore


Okay here are some weird dreams I have had in the last month:
1) For some unknown reason I was back in my high school (for some type of event) and there was this guy, he was someone I use to know then he morphed into an unknown man and he brought out some guns and locked us in the library, people were panicking so I was trying calm them down and making crazy ideas how to escape, then the guy walked back in and I woke up.

2) Kim (my sis) and I where driving and we were going down this steep hil into like a parking garage and this guy like cuts us off causing us to flip over a few times but we landed right side up but Kim was hurt really bad, and I got out and calling 911, we were in this like underground parking lot and road and I could see a subway and olive garden and other places it looked like a downtown. I then went over to protect Kim until help arrived, she was really hurt. Then all of a sudden she wasn't she got up and met Lucy (her friend) at subway. I was still at the scene and there was this guy who just had this worried look staring at me, then I woke up.

Friday, July 16, 2010


This is a picture of me in college, I really hate pictures of myself but sometimes it is smart to have a picture of yourself somewhere for people to see.


I am trying to keep my calm it is not easy, people are so stupid sometimes, and the phones at work suck which makes us look bad and I am going to get the 24th off even if I have to call in, so to keep my calm I am listening to music but since my brand new head phones somehow broke I am not very happy...


I am trying to keep my calm it is not easy, people are so stupid sometimes, and the phones at work suck which makes us look bad and I am going to get the 24th off even if I have to call in, so to keep my calm I am listening to music but since my brand new head phones somehow broke I am not very happy...

Thursday, July 15, 2010


Well I am not getting my new hours so I missed a chance to change my days off all because people can't think before they act... yeah I am a little mad and my boss is not even here for me to talk to him... I don't know anymore what to do or what to think... I am just going to sit at work and be quite I am not going to do more then I was hired to do no more extra work without extra money...

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


I am bored always bored I hate having days off in the middle of the week normal people at work or having to go to work tomorrow... ugh... I wish I was in college again it would be so simple.... I am so bored I am watching stupid cartoons with my brothers.... HELP!!!

Monday, July 12, 2010

You Are Seeing Poems

To make sure they are down I am going to be writing poems some are old I just want to keep, they may suck but I work on them and change them over the years, so anyways if you don't like them to bad, but most of the time I could be posting a random thought so some you can ignore or leave a comment to let me know you hate them... anyways later y'all.


I thought you said you were my best friend,
if you are why am I crying, bleeding, dying...
You told me you would never hurt me,
you told me that you were the best there would ever be
So I gave you my love, my heart, and soul,
so now I am lying here dying saying...
I thought you said you were my best friend,
if you are why am I crying, bleeding, dying...
You told me you would do nothing to cause me pain,
now my blood is about to drain,
now you are about to put a bullet in my head,
and then I shall be dead,
but before you do I would like to say Fuck You,
then my last thought will be
I thought you were my best friend,
if you are why am I crying for my baby,
bleeding from my heart,
and dying from your bullet.


Here I sit wanting you
Here I sit needing you
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit loving you
Here I sit remembering you
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit thinking only of you
Here I sit needing your voice
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit pictureing you
Here I sit needing your touch
There you sit not knowing
Here I sit dying
Here I sit leaving this world
And there you sit never knowing

One Day

One day baby I will let you know
One day baby you will know
One day baby you will let me go
One day baby I will destory me and you
One day baby I will let you know
One day baby you will know
One day baby I'll have another to hold
One day baby I'll have what is left of me and you
One day baby you will leave me and him
One day baby I will tell him o
One day baby you will be an enemy
One day baby my new baby will let you know
One day baby our child will be a man
One day baby I will let you know
One day baby you let me go
One day baby I destoried me and you and
One day baby I will pay for loving you

Sunday, July 11, 2010

New Predetors Movie

So I saw the new predetors movie, it sucked bad, there was no plot it was really stupid and so forth that that got a F- if possible that thing needs to be taken out back and shot a few times and then left to die a lonely death it sucked that bad...


Okay so I am pissed, I don't get my new hours at work and back at my old hours which suck.... something has to be done about this.... a mad Kati is not good news for anybody...

Friday, July 2, 2010

New Hours At Work

Well I got some new hours at work I work Sunday and Monday from 8pm to 6am and then Thursday and Saturday from 9pm to 7am! Don't know how it is going to work out but should be okay. Anyways they found an almost 4 million year old humnoid!!! It was a female! Other then that the Universe is leaking, babies know all the secrets to life, plug in hybrids are going to do more damange then good and they have robots fighting battles, (sources National Geographic and Scientific American). Other then that I have been reading the Sookie Stackhouse books, they are okay it is slow reading, mostly because it can get long and drawn out at times, they get a C-.

Thursday, June 3, 2010


The new Sims 3 Ambitions expansion pack is nice. Could be better could be worse I wish there was more items for the cost, but new town and new jobs and getting to go to work with the sim is kinda cool, though it is only for the new jobs i think, I haven't played my older games yet messing around with the new jobs, but anyways I love SIMS! I ahve been playing since 2002, so eight years, sims has been around for 10 so almost from the beginning, I miss sims 1 i lost it moving back from Iowa City, and I have all of sims 2 and 3 though! But sometimes you just want to play the first one, or the second one, i mean 2 has college and vampires the first has magic and other things, can't wait for it to be on the sims 3!

Monday, May 31, 2010


Okay Obama went out and did the wreath but a little rain and he cancels his speech honoring the veterans??????? He could have moved it in some where I get the storms in the Midwest are bad but come on you know it rains in the midwest every memorial day, he should have had a back up plan the speech should have been made some how, even if it was only a few words. Does this man have so little respect, we know his wife does not any respect, I mean she wears white on veterans day memorial, white is for celebration, to honor someone she should have wore a more somber color, not white! But he is the president he should show some more respect and his wife needs to show more as well, she is the first lady she is just not the person sleeping with the president! The first lady has some effect on the gov't no matter what anybody says, a wife is always going to influence the husband! If he wants to be reelected in a couple of years he is going to have to learn to show respect where it is needed, and he needs to take a good look at what the VA is doing I mean people out there are getting money for nothing they barely make past boot camp then pretend to be crazy and get a section 8 and then gets a shit load of money that is way to wrong where people like my grandfathers and my father who did their time gets a bronze plaque when they die and a flag for their widows. That is so wrong! I hope one day somebody realizes that the veterans need to be treated better there should be no homeless vets there should be no hungry vets there should be no vet without health care THERE SHOULD NOT BE ANY HARDSHIP TO A VET! I wish I could do more, I would love to get inside the gov't and change things the way they should be. We are one of the richest most powerful nation and we can't fix the problems in our own country? I believe we need to be concerned with the world, but we need to focus on ourselves and how we treat the citizens of this nation.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Memorial Day

Okay so we went to the cemeteries, Fort Dodge, and Waterloo on Thursday, and Waterloo and Rock Island on Friday. People look at us so strange when well tell them we are spending our days off going to the cemeteries, people need to start doing that again, I mean, it is called Memorial Day to honor our Veterans and of course all those who have passed away and gone before us. It was very hard this year since losing dad, and driving to Fort Dodge and driving to Rock Island was awful, not the traffic that was fine but the detours, the bridge was out in Fort Dodge so we had to go in a back way, then the bridge was out to the Arsenal in Rock Island so we had to go a back way, then getting lost sucks in Rock Island really sucks when seeing signs that say cougar crossing! But really it is not called Memorial Day to get drunk and party it is called Memorial Day to remember those that have passed away Veterans or not, we put flows on my grandparents graves, and Grandma Ag, and Mom's aunts and uncles in Fort Dodge, and cousins (I think, not very good with how some are related). A lot of the people in my grandparents generations were out but not to many people in my parent's age group and I saw only one or two around my age. That is sad that people think it is just a time to party, PEOPLE NEED TO REMEMBER WHAT MEMORIAL DAY IS ABOUT!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Cirque Du Freak

Okay So I have read the first 2 books almost done with the third, and am wondering if the guys who did the movie The Vampire's Assistant even read the books? There are a lot of parts and whole different world in the books, and could have made a whole different movie... hmmmm... They get a C+ UPDATE 05/22/10 I have read 3 4 5 6 and 7 on 8 they are okay they get a C overall, there are things that are missing plot holes and of course 8 is starting to get on my nerves... but that is okay hopefully i have the patience to finish the series, i have looked at them and they could have done the movie completely different I don't think they read the books, because there are so many things that could have been done in the movie... wonder how they do the second movie....

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Iron Man 2 and other movies SPOLIER FOR DAYBREAKERS

Well lets recap the movies I have seen, Iron Man 2 I gave a B+ It was action packed but really again predictable, I wish for one movie where I can't figure out the end, The Losers I thought was very funny I am not big on these type of movies, but it earned a solid B, I would pay to watch again, very funny very funny, On DVD Legion, I think I may have written on this before, but it got a C it was a good movie, you could see the end from a mile away but still action packed enought to watch again, DayBreakers, well this one was a very intresting vampire movie, more my speed, I mean the end was good, Vampire turning back to human using what kills it, then the blood of a treated vampire, very intresting, I hadn't thought of that vampires being able to change back to human, I mean I know Joss Wheadon did it in Angel, but that was for like 1 eposide and he changed, back these humans can't be changed back... intresting... very intresting I gave it an A-, I wanted more...

Sunday, April 11, 2010


Well I watched the last episode of bones about the first case they had season 5 episoide 21, but anyway why did they do that, Bones and Booth belong together.

Friday, April 9, 2010

Reading Reading

I am reading the fifth book of the fablehaven series, I found a funny part, where Seth states "remind me to teach you guys about the food Pyramid."
"A pyramid made of food?" Doren said reverently "Ware are your humble pupils." Newel. Anyways I hated the end I have finsished it, the book was okay, but the end end with SPOLIER ALERT is that it just ends with Kendell and Bracken talking I was expecting more then poof it ends out of nowhere. Hated that, for that I give it a D-, I want more so Mr. Mull might want to rethink a 6th book or at least do a redo with a better ending.

Monday, March 29, 2010

The Nook

Well, I have bought the Nook, so far I like it, I can buy books right on it, it doesn't really have a backlight so I have to have a light on, but it okay, better for the eyes! I give it B-, if it had a backlight I would have given it a better grade but I still enjoy it.

Friday, March 12, 2010

The Wiccan Rede

Bide ye Wiccan laws ye must,
in perfect love and perfect trust.
Live and let live, fairly take and fairly give.
Form the circle thrice about, to keep all evil spirits out.
To bind ye spell every time, let ye spell be spake in rhyme.
Soft of eye, light of touch, speak ye little, listen much.
Deosil go by the waxing moon, singing out ye Witches’ Rune.
Widdershins go by the waning moon, chanting out ye Baneful Rune.
When the Lady’s moon is new, kiss your hand to her times two.
When the moon rides at her peak, then ye heart’s desire seek.
Heed the North wind’s mighty gale, lock the door and trim the sail.
When the wind comes from the South, love will kiss thee on the mouth.
When the wind blows from the West, departed souls may have no rest.
When the wind blows from the East, except the new and set the feast.
Nine woods in ye cauldron go, burn them fast and burn them slow.
Elder be ye Lady’s tree, burn it not or cursed ye’ll be.
When the wheel begins to turn, soon ye Beltaine fire’ll burn.
When the wheel hath turned to Yule, light the log the Horned One rules.
Heed ye flower, bush and tree, by the Lady blessed be.
Where the rippling waters flow, cast a stone and truth ye’ll know.
When ye have and hold a need, harken not to others greed.
With a fool no season spend, nor be counted as his friend.
Merry meet and merry part, bright the cheeks and warm the heart.
Mind ye threefold law ye should, three times bad and three times good.
When misfortune is anow, wear the blue star upon thy brow.
True in love ye must ever be, lest thy love be false to thee.
In these eight words the Wiccan Rede fulfill,
‘An ye harm none, do what ye will.

Saturday, March 6, 2010


Well, I went and rented 2012 and bought vampires assistant. They were both okay, 2012 was so stupid it was funny! But it had an okay plot, and it could happen but I think that it would take longer then a day. It would might take thousands of years! Any way I thought the vampires assistant was good, I was pleasently surprised in the movie, I guess it helps I never read the books, but I hope they do make a sequal, I would go see it.

Monday, March 1, 2010


I think the place I work is haunted, I have seen like black clouds, and I feel uneasy and I get cold chills, it is weird, I believe in spirts and I think I have even seen them, but this is differnt, it is weird, and people are always out sick at work, when they were fine when they were not in the building. It is weird. And out of the blue a few days ago, I suddenly remember our own local version of Bloody Mary, or at least my grade school. There was a nun, supposely, when the school was a high school, then it went by St. Mary's Catholic School, went for K-12, it changed in 1959 I think, when our catholic high school opened (which as a ghost there to) but this nun was killed by a bunch of kids, and her blood stained the floors of of the building. They have tried to paint over it and could not, it would remain blood red in the old building. If you said bloody mary in the locker rooms, the lights would go out and a woman would show up in the mirror and take you with her to hell.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Percy Jackson- Lighting Thief Book and Movie

I give the book a B it was good, easy read, I read all 5 books and Give them each a B. They were easy to read, wanted to make you read more. Great for teens! I would have given them a higher mark, I feel the author could have made them older, for one, but he did a good job keeping close to the ancient myths. As for the movie I give a D there were things that could have been done better and things I missed, like the battle with Ares that would have been perfect for this book! The spiders, and come on no Clarrise, it is like the made Clarrise into Annabeth!!! And we don't find out about Kronos!!!! Come on!!! Now there was enough action some little changes didn't bother me just these majore ones!! ST LOUIS was missing to!


Okay I give it a D-, I didn't like how they made the wolfman he looked fake, with todays technology it could have been better. I didn't like how Anthony Hopkins died, wolves usally don't get their heads hacked off, and it was slow in bits. Really Really Slow! Almost fell asleep hopefully the sequeal is better, since the cop was bitten!

Haven't been on in awhile

Okay so I haven't been on in awhile, mostly I was writing, reading and watching some tv shows! Look for reviews if you actually read this!

Monday, January 18, 2010


Okay another one happened a few nights ago, I was racing across town with this man, don't know him, we were in a car then we weren't we were trying to steal a car, but someone, something changed and I lost all my clothes??? Anyways we went to this place and I tried to find clothes but the owners came home and all I got was a towel then we were laying in a bed trying to sleep, but there was an attraction that could be cut with a knife but we didn't act upon it, because we had to leave, then we went to Walmart or another store and I was shopplifting clothes all types then I woke up

Friday, January 8, 2010

New Dream

Okay so I was walking though my old grade school St. Mary's talking to Stabler from SVU about something I don't really know what, we talked about when we went to school it seemed safer, I mean we were always alone with counselors and such in those rooms pointing to rooms up the stairs and isolated, then we were in a room looking at things we were knelling down in front of something, I asked him why he does this job, then he saw something and asked what was between my legs, then I asked him if he knew why I did the job, he said yes, he knew, he was there, and nobody believed me, that it was consensual, when it wasn't, I told him they threatened to hurt my family... then I woke up

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Sherlock Holmes

Okay the movie was okay I give it a C-, there was a lot of action but no real plot point, it was like they threw the big name actors in (not that I don't love Robert Downey Jr., but really I need plot) and then thought crap we need some type of plot and came up with something on the spot, it seemed to be they use 1 whole movie to introduce the 2nd movie! But I would pay the 7 dollars to go see it.


I had a dream again it is a recurring dream I am in this white room it is a baby room I am sitting in a white rocking chair (or sometimes standing) by a window it is bright out side, I am in a white nightgown, old fashion type I am holding a baby in a white blanket the crib the dresser the chair the walls the carpet is all white, I have gold band on my finger there a pictures in wooden picture frames, but I am crying, always crying never saying anything just rocking my baby crying, looking out the window and the beautiful day.

Friday, January 1, 2010


okay this one started with me riding in a convertable with mom and 2 young children one looked like my sister when she was young then we were at the grocery store i said i would stay with them and sent mom in but i put them in a cart and went in and told mick to move the car then i was in a school or something looking for someone but it had like a store aslie in front of a classroom of small kids then i was somewhere where thes 2 guys were like ordered to do something with sand and i started digging though it to find this man i found him he was moving sand i said i am sorry then we were walking and i said i killed my best friend and he was like my angel and i said no she is okay then were behind a piler and i asked him to dance with me we danced then he kissed me and then i woke up.